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THE TEARS ARE FALLING

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 02:01 EST

My heart feels such pain,
tell me how to stop my tears.
What can I do to ease the pain?

Why, has life always been so hard,
showering me with such heavy burdens?

The tears keep falling
as I lay down to sleep.
My eyes wide open,
flashes of my past,
Of things I lost in my life.

As the tears fall, memories
floating around in my mind,
going back in time.
Remembering all the good times
When I had it all.

The tears are falling like a summer rain,
wishing I could turn back time.
Never thinking one day, there would
be no you here beside me.

With tears falling down my face,
Knowing there is nothing left
but my memories of times past,
When you were there beside me
Keeping me safe.
Making all the problems seem small
As you are standing so tall.

No tears of sorrow,
only Love, hope and happiness,
Never thinking of tomorrow.

Now as my tears are falling
there is no one here to wipe them away.
Just my hands of loneliness
Praying, what to do.

I stare at nothing,trying to decide
where do I go from here,
Which way do I turn?

The tears are falling, remembering
all the things I took for granted,
now that all is lost and gone.

As I wipe the tears falling down my face
I look up to the sky and pray.
"Please God, help to show me the way.
Lead me down the right path,
give me the strength to carry on.
It's so lonely here by myself
with so many things to do.
I need you to give me the faith
to see me through."

The tears have stopped falling.
With God's help I'll figure out
what I need to do.
It may not be the best,
But it's the best that I can do,
Living my life by myself, without you.

HOW DO I EASE THE PAIN ?

Mon, 11 May 2009 13:20 EST

When I am here and you are there,
miles and miles away from each other
A place where only memory and fantasy brings us together.
A place where our minds revolve around love
and our hearts never stop beating.
Hearing your voice does not fill this hunger,
Cuddling that pillow does not give me that needed warmth either.
I smell your fragrance and it all comes rushing back...
the kiss, the touch, then the tears.
The pain is deeper then any physical wound because it is emotional.
How do I ease the pain that the distance is causing ?
How do I ease this emotion draining state, this emptiness, loneliness and lostness. ?
I will close my eyes, listen deep to my heartbeat because it plays a song of hope.
I look at those shining stars and the full moon for they are visible to both worlds,
they are smiling at me and you.
And then i know that soon enough the only distance
between you and I will be temporary.
I remember the promise made before, the vows we took silently
and then i made a silent prayer not to stumble
because this pain is also temporary
So between now and then I hold you in my soul,
a place where only you and I have the keys to the gates, the key of love.
Between now and then i hold on to memories and thoughts
thoughts of knowing thats you love, trust and miss me.
These may not erase the pain but until I am in your arms again,
until our lips meet again, they will get me trough each day
that passes without you near.
When we meet again there is going to be enough love to cover for all
those days of pain that we went through apart
And maybe then I would have survived the pain.

MY LOVE

Sat, 09 May 2009 09:54 EST

THE HEART KNOWS.....

Sat, 02 May 2009 06:40 EST

KEEPER OF MY DREAMS

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 08:39 EST

LOVE IS GONE

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 11:33 EST

Love is gone

There is no love here
It left without goodbyes
It gave me no warning
It abandoned me to die

I'm numb and cold
Lifeless, morose
confused, in pain
nothing is the same

what happened?
I don't know
I believed
In what though?

Was it real?
Did I make it up?
Did you ever care?
You screwed up

You were my joy
My everlasting
You were my smile
Can you still see me laughing?

Now I just sit here
In the dark
wondering
Where did I fall apart?

I must have lost my mind
Nothing was true
I believed in lies
I believed in you

PROMISE ME PLEASE....

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 15:52 EST

Will you keep me for good this time?
Will you walk with me through the pain?
Will you hold me a little tighter
Through the sunshine and the rain?
Will you remember me every passing moment
That I'm not by your side?
Will you smile in delight of me?
Will you take me on this ride?
Keep me my love
In your heart and in your mind
It is my solemn vow to love you
For all the days of your life.
I promise to honor the things that make up YOU
And love all the silly things you do
I will respect the man you've grown to be
But there's just one thing
I need you to promise me...
Promise me
That it's for keeps

please..........

WHERE DID WE GO WRONG ?

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 10:54 EST

Habibi

Tell me where our love went

I want to get it back

Something i never want to lack

I have given you my heart

Now we’re drifted apart

How could this happen

Where did we go wrong

Over the last year there have been many tears

Always with a smile on my face

I have given you all of me

My love, tears, and strength Only for you,

Habibi

I can’t seem to get enough

I don’t want to give up

In the middle of a storm

Daggers in my heart

Watching our love grow apart

A thousand miles away

But in reality so very close

How could this happen

Where did we go wrong

Is this how it ends,

I thought our love was strong

Don’t say this is the end

Let’s keep us going

The beat of my heart now rapid and unsteady

Wish you were mine again

Habibi,

I love you I do and that isn’t a lie

I want you,

I need you and only god knows why

Hold on to my heart Until the end of time

Where forever you’ll be mine

Habibi,

Is this goodbye

Could it be threw the years i was living a lie,

A last kiss on the lips please save it for me

I want us together,

why can’t you see

I love you i do

I'll always run back to you,

But baby will you?

Only time will tell,

See you in time

Don’t let the flame die,

Habibi

MY GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST

Sat, 06 Dec 2008 05:08 EST

They say it is the season to be jolly and i truly wish
for us all to have a happy and peaceful holiday time.
Be it Christmas, Eid al Adha or Hannukah
I pray that in all the happy feasting we shall never
forget the ones less fortunate then us.

Here a little reminder just in case you forgot...

MY GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown-up now
Can you still help somehow?
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself, but for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in that blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end

This is my grown-up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown-up Christmas list

and love would never end....
with love to all my friends from
♥Joanna♥

CHANGES

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 06:44 EST

If you think you know how much you mean to me, you don’t

If you think you can guess how much I love, you can’t

If you come to the conclusion that my feelings for you will never change, you’re wrong

Everyday, you mean something different to me

Sometimes it is something good Sometimes it is something not so good

But it is never anything that will bring us to an end

Everyday, the meaning of our love changes

Sometimes for the better Sometimes for the worse

But it never is ending

Everyday, my feelings for you change

Sometimes in a positive way Sometimes in a negative way

But never in such a way as to drive us apart

The reason you cannot put a value to the three items above is because they are ever changing

There is never a day that goes by that you mean the same to me as the day before

There is never a day that my heart feels the same for you as it did yesterday

There is never a time that my feelings stay the same

These are not negative things meaning I care for you less

They are simply things one cannot predict, nor can one control

I can say that to me your meaning, my love, and my feelings are always on my mind and in my heart

We are the ones who control the daily changes between positive and negative And it is up to us to ensure that most days are positive days

But keep in mind that once the sun has set that day can never be changed

So think wisely when dealing with my heart, for you may hurt it in such a way that it would be very hard to mend the next day!

HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY HABIBI

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 21:11 EST

Sometimes we take for granted
the people in our lives
that mean the most to us.
I want to tell you how much
that you being in my life
does for me every day in so many ways.

Is there a way to put all the feelings
I have about us in one small poem,
or can I only hope to intimate
the role that our friendship
Has played in my life?

I never imagined when we first met,
that someday you would be
such an important part of my life.
That in my life full of uncertainties,
I could count on knowing
with unfailing certainty,
That you really are the person
who knows me better than anyone else,
including all my faults and foibles,
and still loves me the way I am.

You understand more about
How I feel
How I think
How I react
How I handle the things in my life,
You just know
Even when I don't give you much to go on
STILL YOU KNOW

You are one of the only people I can trust
to let see those secret places in my soul,
that most people will never see
or even realize are there.

You know the difference between
when I am just blue and feeling overwhelmed,
and when my life is really falling apart.
You help me define those differences
And figure out the best way to get through.

But you are also
the first person I want to call
when something good happens.
When I write a new poem
I want to read it to you,
When I have a new idea
I want to share my creativity,
with the person who has always had faith in me
even when everyone else couldn't see those things in me.

You have loved me unconditionally
in spite of all the mistakes I have made with my life.

You found a way to forgive me
for what I put you through,
because you know a lot of it
Was just my pain
blinding me to everything else.
I know you have felt that same pain
just in different ways,
so you really do understand
many times when others don't.

You are the best friend I never had
A true soulmate who shares
so many of my hopes and dreams.

You know when you need me
I will be there for you
and that I am stronger than you think.
I never want our relationship to feel like a burden
that you must carry alone.
We have gotten through a lot
on our journey together so far,
and I always want to share the load
So we can make it lighter for each other.

You are the best friend I have ever had
and I value the hours we have spent
both laughing and crying together.
But the thing that I thank God for
---Every day of my life ---
Is that he gave me a wonderful loving husband like you.

I Miss You on Our Anniversary

I miss you on our anniversary.
It's lonelier than most days I'm alone,
Even though we manage on the phone
To touch with words the face we cannot see.
You away are far more dear to me
Than anyone who might remain at home.
My love is in the places that you roam,
Being with you where I cannot be.
We do not choose the objects of our passion,
But passively await the holy fire
That immolates our past and lights our fate,
Twisting through the alleys of desire.
So I am yours, and will contented wait,
Allowing love my life and will to fashion.

TRUE LOVE

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 02:16 EST

When I feel you near me
I tremble with excitement

Isn't it amazing
How you look at me
And you say nothing at all
But I can still understand
Every word being spoken through your eyes

As you brush back my hair
And you kiss my neck
I think to myself
How can I be so lucky
Lucky to have you in my life

The thoughts that run though my head
They are only of you
I don't see how it is possible
Possible for you to always be on my mind
You're always in my heart

Without a word
Without a touch
You look into my eyes
And tell me everything

When caressing my face
You kiss my lips
You speak those
So soft and sweet
I love you

I love you
Not only for what you are
But also
Also
Also what you have made of me

I love you
Because you've made me
A strong person
You've made my happy

You have done this
With out a word
Nor a touch
You've done this
Just by being you

People say we wont lat forever
I want to ignore those possibilities
And love you forever
I can't picture
Picture my life without you in it

I will always want you
I will always need you
So lets live our lives together
And forever

If this is true love
We'll make it through anything
And trust me when I say it
I know it for a fact...

This is true love

CLOSE YOUR EYES AND THINK OF ME.....

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 11:42 EST

I can't be with you today or tomorrow
but if you close your eyes and think;
I'll be beside you in the kitchen
wearing your shirt - standing by the sink.

I'll be with you in the bedroom
waiting quietly on our bed;
Just close your eyes and think of me,
relive those memories in your head.

I'll stand by you in the bathroom,
a fun place to meet :)) ;
I'll smile at you so playfully
as I let you brush my teeth.

I'll be your light in the darkness,
shining steady through and through;
You only have to watch it glow
to know I think of you.

I'll be the music that you listen to,
I'll be there in every song:
I'll laugh with you and sing with you,
and comfort you when your day's gone wrong.

I'll be the wind that ruffles your hair,
I'll be that warm embrace;
I'll be the hand on your shoulder,
I'll be the tender touch on your face.

I'll be the clock gently ticking,
reminding you of the times;
We've shut the rest of the world outside
we're in our own world - yours and mine.

I'll be the moon as it dances
on the water cold and still;
For I have loved you always
and I know I always will.

Though you may not see me physically
as we live our life today;
Just close your eyes and think of me
I will be right there .....

Forever in your eyes.

A UNION FOR TIME EVERLASTING

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 09:19 EST

Together we have joined in a union for time everlasting.

In the short time I have been your wife,
I have found such happiness and joy.
Though the road ahead as not always been clear
We agreed to hold hands as we travel the path of life.

Your strength and wisdom has been my light.
Your giving nature showers me with gifts.
You gentle soul has provided me with shelter.
Treated as special, adored and cherished I am.

Together we have shared laughter and tears.
Magical and full of sunshine, our love is like no other.
We have each found that special someone with
to share our thoughts, feelings, dreams and fears.

Many moments of great passion we have had.
We are each others soul mates as well as lovers
I thank the heavens we have met.
of this I will spend my life being glad.

THANK YOU FOR THE MANY BIRTHDAY WISHES........

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 08:44 EST

THANK YOU MY WONDERFUL FRIENDS FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY

YESTERDAY SO VERY SPECIAL. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE COMMENTS

AND ALL THE MESSAGES AND EMAILS AND TEXT AND CARDS I HAVE

RECEIVED. I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS. YOU ALL ARE THE BEST !!!

GOD BLESS YOU

WITH LOVE

FROM

JOANNA

A VERY SPECIAL THANK YOU TO MY SISTERS WHO HAVE SURPRISED ME

WITH A WORK OF LOVE - IN MY EYES A MASTERPIECE

I LOVE YOU MY SWEET SISTERS.............